Short Happiness

I'm so over the moon with this news

Even my dearest husband

Celebrate the coming of 2010 full of happiness

Celebration still continued for awhile

Preparing myself for this so called "gift"

take a lot of precautions

slowly changing my daily routine & diet

to accommodate "it"

Seeing myself changing

happiness grows even more

Until around a month,

tension begins

sadness begins

money flowing like nobody business

Still, me & husband do not give up on "it"

We have hope & faith on "it"

Until the very word

that i do not want to hear or think about

came out

I still manage to walk out there alone with smiley face

but when im alone, tears start drowning me

I cant eat

I cant think

I cant even talk

I'm lucky to have my husband with me all this while

I cant imagine if im alone in this

Though i know is hard on him too but still

he give me the support that i so much needed

Also my sis...

What will i do without them?

Went to a few more places for advice

the more places & people give u advice

the more headache i am

The more im confused

The more heartbroken i am

Still i hand on with "it"

Until one day, i cant take it anymore

I talk to "it"

As if "it" knows what i think or how miserable i am

The answer "it" gave me...

I totally break down

I'm in total wreck

Though my husband already told me not

to put such high hope

Though i THOUGHT im prepared

yet i still fall in pieces

Guess the answer is NOT what i want

Guess I'm NOT that prepared

Guess I'm NOT that strong

Everything ended in 021910

So short yet long miserable months

But is good that "it" finally give me the answer

rather than i waste more time & money on "it"

Maybe this time

We're not fated to be together

But i do hope "you" will find someone good for you

Someone that can give what "you" wanted

As for me,

I've to keep myself strong

I've to keep myself healthy

for the next coming. . .

Wish me luck my dear "you"!

I too, wish you all the best & I LOVE YOU!