7th Aunt Pass Away...

My 7th Aunt passed away on 15 April 2008 at the age of 57. Even though i din really talk to her, din really that close to her now, but i still feel very sad. I remember when i'm still very young, me & my sis did stay @ their house in spore. I remember she bring us to shopping, buy us Barbie Dolls. Bring me to Clinic! I remember until now that she scold me bcos i pronounce my sur name wrongly! hehe...how old am i that time? Hmm...not sure...i think not even 10 yrs old. I pronounce it in bahasa baku "Tang" instead of English way "Thang". Until now i never 4get it. i even argue with her...haha....really funny.

Even though she's very fierce & she let ppl to think that she's NOT that kind/soft..but she was good & kind. i do regret why this year CNY i din go back to JB. I also regret why last month my parents went spore to visit her & i din follow them. That time, her cancer is already in the Final stage & the doctor already start giving her morphine to stop her pain.

My mom keep on calling her every 2 wks when we know she was diagnose with cancer. Mom told us that every week, her condition getting worst. First week, she's complaining that her bone & body feel so so pain until she cant stand it & force to take morphine. Following week, she start saying that she cannot eat, her throat cannot swallow anythings. On third week, her lower body paralysed, she;s very weak, cannot talk so much. She keep shouting to doctor & nurse that she want to go back home.

On monday noon she finally get her wish...doctor dis-charged her. She's relief that she finally get back to her own home. The following day, early morning, before 9am, she passed away peacefully.
Is a good thing too bcos we do not want to see her suffer so much. She's been very strong...not crying when everyone cry 4 her, not taking morphine unless she's really really cant take the pain. She even advice her husband not to do stupid things after she "went to another world".

I feel glad that i did attend her funeral. Mom & dad ask me & sis NOT to take leave if is so troublesome. But i being stubborn...i tell myself that i MUST attend. Because i did not see her for few yrs. I do not want to feel regret by Not paying her the last respect. Is kinda boring by sitting there for almost half a day, not doing anything, only sit, talk, eat & cry...but again...i feel glad to pay her the last respect.